I had started thinking about this blog sometime after receiving the third message. I hesitated because I knew it would worry my wife. Despite my promise of anonymity my wife was still concerned that someone would read the blog and be able to figure out who I was. And although I am not ashamed of anything I have written here, it is a highly intimate bearing of my soul that I was only prepared to share with my wife.
But then I received a fourth message:
Share your beliefs.
And so here we are. The reason this blog exists.
Now you can parse those words and convince yourself They meant just share it with your closest inner circle of family and friends. But I believe that’s not what The Greatest Love meant. They meant make it public somehow and in so doing I needed to make a decision. My wife did not want me to make the blog public. My god did. And so who do I listen to? Who is more important to me? Who do I love more?
Those two latter questions had an easy answer for me: my wife. She is the love of my life and the woman I love more than my god. And I’m not worried about the consequences of saying that. You see there was a time in the past when Yahweh asked His people to love Him before all others. This was the god of the Old Testament. I believe that is the same god as today but now They are playing by different rules because humanity has progressed. Love has been enshrined into the secular laws, charters, and constitutions of many nations. And so I believe the relationship between humanity and The Greatest Love has advanced along with us. Humanity has grown and in the process blind obedience and unquestioning worship have given way to love – love for all humanity.
I believe The Greatest Love no longer cares about how people rank the relative strength of their love for people, places, things, and their god(s). The Greatest Love just cares that people love, period. And if they learn to love The Greatest Love that’s fine too. But feel free to love your family before The Greatest Love, your friends, your nation, your World, etc. Don’t feel the need to love The Greatest Love before all others. In fact They are fine if you don’t love them at all, or even believe in them at all. Just love. Love something. Love someone.
Think of that for a moment. A god whose love for us is greater than Their Knowledge or Power. Despite that they ask nearly nothing from us in return. Not our love. Not our worship. Not even our belief. They created us, gave us life, and ask only that we love as broadly and as deeply as we can. It is this lesson in infinite Grace and Mercy that humbles me, and it is why I choose to worship my god through personal prayer and reflection. Not because I have to, but because I want to. And not out of fear, but out of love.
Finally if I love my wife more than The Greatest Love why did I make this blog public? Because the love for my wife versus my god, although an important consideration, was only part of the calculation. Upon receiving the fourth message I listened first to my own heart and then asked my wife again if she would be fine with it. I wanted to make it public because I thought it would be cathartic for me, and yes, because my god asked me to do it.
And together we agreed that I should write this blog.